Happily Ever Seeking God

The big G.O.D. Many of us when we first got sober, had a problem with God. Whether we believed or not, we were angry or not, or had just forgotten about God all together, it created issues when we were told we needed to find God again. But, maybe I should speak for myself. When I first got sober, my connection with God was non-existent. I had a lot of doubts to begin with, and I was extremely angry with God because I felt like he had abandoned me. Maybe that’s why I had doubts, because every time I prayed for Him to get me out of whatever mess I had gotten myself into, and He didn’t, then I was forced to “not” believe. But I’ve learned since then, that’s not really how it works. I have been able to establish my own conception of God, and that has grown…

I feel like the question I ask so often on here is "where do you see God or feel God?" Because seeing is believing, right? What I don't think about as much is actually listening for God (plus most likely I haven't stopped talking myself so it's a little harder to hear anything haha). I've had such a hard time (at times) over the years distinguishing between my voice (and what I want) vs God's. But what I can tell you is I've been hearing Him lately. Really truly hearing Him. I'm listening. I hear Him say He's proud of me. I have heard Him recently tell me to REST. And that's the okay thing to do. The other day I was so exhausted and started to beat myself up for wanting to lay down while all the kids took an afternoon nap (normally that's the time where I have…

Hey y'all from happily ever seeking God! Man, if I truly listen and watch and "be still" as of late I have found that really cool things can happen. Of course I think cool things are happening all the time, I just can't slow down long enough to pay attention to it. I heard a voice the other day, clear as day, (in my head) of "I am proud of you". I have several voices in my head on a pretty consistent basis, those of other people and several of my own (haha), but this one was different. You know if you know. I've heard it several times, on the way to prison, when our pipes burst in our crawl space, when giving birth, just to name a few, but you know that voice, that calm, that peace of it's all going to be okay. It was the God of…

We took the kids to a lake here in town the other day and it was really cool. I think about my life today and how different it is now vs. 12 years ago. I suppose I am especially nostalgic, since my 12th sober anniversary is tomorrow. I can't believe that. That today I get to go with my husband and my kids to a lake, hang out, swim around, laugh, relax, have a good time (until our middle boy jumps in and tries to swim after some ducks, then gets stuck and starts going nuts...along with me almost burning the soles of my feet off on the parking lot...no big deal haha).

But really, this is just another place I can find God, I talk to God, I be near God (of course I also forget that God is with me all the time anyways, life can just make…