Happily Ever Seeking God

The big G.O.D. Many of us when we first got sober, had a problem with God. Whether we believed or not, we were angry or not, or had just forgotten about God all together, it created issues when we were told we needed to find God again. But, maybe I should speak for myself. When I first got sober, my connection with God was non-existent. I had a lot of doubts to begin with, and I was extremely angry with God because I felt like he had abandoned me. Maybe that’s why I had doubts, because every time I prayed for Him to get me out of whatever mess I had gotten myself into, and He didn’t, then I was forced to “not” believe. But I’ve learned since then, that’s not really how it works. I have been able to establish my own conception of God, and that has grown…

We took the kids to a lake here in town the other day and it was really cool. I think about my life today and how different it is now vs. 12 years ago. I suppose I am especially nostalgic, since my 12th sober anniversary is tomorrow. I can't believe that. That today I get to go with my husband and my kids to a lake, hang out, swim around, laugh, relax, have a good time (until our middle boy jumps in and tries to swim after some ducks, then gets stuck and starts going nuts...along with me almost burning the soles of my feet off on the parking lot...no big deal haha).

But really, this is just another place I can find God, I talk to God, I be near God (of course I also forget that God is with me all the time anyways, life can just make…

Continuing in our Bible study book, one of the most recent chapters we read was on decision making and how to bring God into. And how to even make the right decision, or what is the right decision. I can have the hardest time making decisions. I remember before getting sober I used to think I was doing whatever I wanted and making the decision to drink like I did (turns out I was just telling myself that to get me through the day), but after I got sober I really couldn't make a decision to save my life. I used to struggle with that as a kid because I was so afraid of making the wrong decision and then someone was going to be mad at me for it or the world was going to come to an end. The first few years of my sobriety, I would ask…

Has anyone read this book? This is our second book in my Bible study group, a book AND group that I highly recommend. One of my really good friends recommended the group to me, asked the leader if I could join, and she said of course! To be honest, being a part of a Bible study is not something that I've done before. But why wouldn't I do it now? The wisdom I get from these books but more importantly our leader and the other women in this group is something I just haven't experienced before. I've had a hard time (with a lot of things haha) but especially my prayer life over the years. This group allows me to keep it real, while everyone else does the same, and we talk about it. We talk about the struggles, the things we want to work on, what God wants for…