Happily Ever Hobbies

From week two of reading this book, man is it speaking to me. It talks a lot about shame...and how do we get past that. As most of us want a how-to book on what to do, what this author tells us is that we actually have to work through it. And what that looks like is talking about it. Getting our story out there. Whatever that story is. No matter how good or bad or what people might think of us. But just like from this page on the book we do worry about what other people think. We do worry about the judgment and have a fear of being less than, not belonging, not able to fit in, not good enough. A lot of times though, what I found is I think we speak that on ourselves (it's our voice with maybe a few other voices mixed in). But here's the thing, most people don't want to do this work. Because as humans we don't want to be uncomfortable. We don't want it to be hard. We don't want to struggle. So therefore we just want the how to make it better. Give me a list of instructions and I will do that as long as it doesn't have anything to do with me being hurt, me showing vulnerability, or even worse a fear of people finding out. But finding out what exactly? From what I found over my experience over the last 12 years, particularly being in the program that I am, is that we are just the same. We all have a story to tell. And I have to continue to tell that for me to continue to get better. For me to grow, for me to help, for me to feel a part of. So who has earned the right to hear my story? Everyone. Because I am enough. I am worthy. Just for today, I will remove the thoughts of not being good enough that I heard my entire life and I will change my perspective. I will have courage, compassion, and connection. With you and with myself. I want to embrace my imperfections, and not continue to pretend that I'm perfect. Because I'm not and I'm not supposed to be.